Sunday, March 22, 2015

Dreams of Past Lives - The Falling Cliff

I had a most profound dream last night; it's focus was on the religious practices of a group of South American people living in tall rounded mountains. I didn't know their name or even hear a language, the entire dream was in visuals and emotional states.

The dream began with me (a tribal or hispanic-looking version of me) walking up to a cliff and jumping, with a strong determination and no fear, going feet first, landing hundreds of feet down in mud. I survived and it caused a great outrage of the people around me, on the shore and in pools of viscous mud and naturally hot water. Armed security type men, with skirts and spears ran angrily to retrieve me and I got the idea they looked at me as a heathen. I knew I was about to be killed or ostracized and my intention was to yell out that the religion was false!

My dream re-directed to the same man, but in his childhood. He had snuck into the priests' domicile and place where only the elite were allowed to go. There were warm mud pools and many people enjoying good times, with women wearing only clothes on the lower half and a generally raucous and sexually-charged atmosphere. I was a child and I hid under a carved soft stone bench (one solid piece, 6 feet long, with two legs, one near each end) I hid between the two legs and held myself up high as I could to not be seen. I was wearing dirty white robes that didn't fit - stolen from a stash of robes that people wore to this sacred area.

In the childhood me I had seen the man we knew as 'Death' happily enjoying fun and drink, showing his face, which was always hidden behind a mask. (As I type this, there was some Egyptian feel to the whole thing, but it was definitely high up in the Andes or some tall rounded mountains in South America.) I continued watching and learned that the entire hierarchy of rulers was false and that they were just as much human as I was. I was dumbfounded and naturally wondered if our religious test was valid or not.

The religious test was falling from the edge of the cliff, only by the men, and must be done falling to the rear without showing fear. You had to land flat on your back in the mud to survive and attain the gifts of the sacred pools and a woman to have as a wife. If you showed fear or panic you were killed by the guards. Sometimes people that didn't show any fear, that seemed perfect for husbandship were killed by 'executive order' or something.

The dream returned to the "present time" adult me and as the guards rushed to kill me, having just jumped feet first off the cliff, landing in the mud, I ran as best I could through the mud, yelling to tell the people this test was a farce and not divinely inspired, but rather a way to challenge the men, at the priests enjoyment, and a way to kill those men who were a threat or had crops or resource access the ruling priests would want.

As I ran trying so hard to share this revelation I knew my death was eminent: my memory flashed back to me climbing the unscalable cliff as a child, to gain access to the priests domiciles. I remembered hiding under the bench listening in dismay, trying to remain hidden and silent as my curiosity was painfully rewarded with truth and my desire to be a priest was shattered.

I made it to the furthest pool before a spear pierced through my back on the right side, coming out through me as the bloody and muddy spear appeared into my vision. I made it five more steps, locking eyes with one of the women who enjoyed the priests secrets. I somehow transferred my plight to share this unjust truth to her, believing she might take up my wish for balance and truth. I died right there not knowing if the truth would come out or not.

Then I woke up, fully remembering every detail of this past life.

Monday, December 1, 2014

On Hypnotism and Post-Hypnotic Suggestions

This is going to seem bizarre... and it is. But, it's a true story (and a long story, give yourself some time for this one).

Years ago I was living in Tucson, AZ, working for Interim Corporation. A position opened up that allowed me to move to Las Vegas so I happily took it. I was extremely over-worked: 80-90 hours a week, on salary of $30,000 a year. It got old fast and I eventually moved on. I ended up taking a part-time job at The Psychic Eye book shop on Tropicana. This was 1999 to the best of my recollection.

While at the Psychic Eye I met Jennifer Johnson. For reasons that wouldn't come clear for more than a decade, I instantly fell for her. She was a hypnotist and psychic and she had targeted me for an atrocious turn of events.

The first time I met Jennifer I didn't particularly like her. Concerning dating, I really didn't find Jennifer attractive in any way: she was loud, forceful, and boisterous, she was very over-weight [which made a difference to me at the time], she was single and had a 7-year old daughter [which made a difference at the time], and she was overbearing. She was not someone I would have considered dating. But, seemingly without justification, I asked her if she wanted to go out with me. She quickly arranged a sitter for her daughter and we had a date for the next evening.

I don't remember the date... I do remember one moment though: she asked if she could hypnotize me. I was naive and trusting and I said yes.

The next eight months would be a blur. I still don't have much recollection of what I did during that time save for a few smatterings of odd situations.

Soon after our first "date" I was happily helping Jennifer, at midnight, move her stuff out of an apartment and into a moving truck, and the next morning from that moving truck into my apartment! I have one memory, and only one memory, of that morning: Jennifer sitting on my couch watching TV while I moved load after load of her things into my home. I was sweating and breathing hard and the one thing I remember is her bellowing at me that she had a bad back and how dare I stop working to criticize her inability to help, making her feel worse about not being able to help. She never had "a bad back" after that day.

The next eight months were a blur. I could write a book about what I remember now, but at the time I was a mindless automaton doing her bidding, cooking her meals, and signing my paycheck over to her.

For eight months Jennifer had me telling stories from my past, which she would then alter to make my life a horrid failure - my memories filled with regretful actions, a sad lonely childhood, and a (apparently) new belief that I had multiple personalities. I would find out that Hypnosis allows easy access to memory and with Jennifer's expertise she made me into a an entirely new person. She had assigned various personalities to me which she could switch at will with a key word or phrase.

Luck smiled upon me one time when an off-duty co-worker witnessed me go through a transition in front of an ice cream store. Jennifer was showing off her latest toy - an absolutely fearsome "me" - to her friend. I switched from Bodhi, a fun-loving surfer mentality, to the fierce protector. When Jennifer said the key word I switched personalities and ran-off the friend of ours. I chased him and followed him, not remembering I knew him, threatening to kick his ass. I still remember the rage. The following week the person from my job asked me about the situation to which I replied a canned response, set by Jennifer, about how I was practicing for a show. The woman from my job didn't seem to buy it but I was unable to recall any of the ice cream store scene in that current personality.

I eventually escaped Jennifer's control and hopped on a Greyhound bus to Maryland where I would live with my sister Judi. But that physical escape wasn't enough.
Enter "post-hypnotic suggestions".

One of Jennifer's greatest accolades was creating responses to events which hadn't happened yet, called post-hypnotic suggestions [PHS]. There are many, many things I'll share concerning this but I will focus on just one for this post because it offers a direct proof of post-hypnotic suggestions in action.

This Las Vegas situation happened around 1999-2000 but this particular post-hypnotic suggestion came to fruition in 2012. Jennifer had searched for future events that could trigger me so she had me relate events to my 25th high school reunion, a decade in the future. Here's the story...

I went to Santa Clara High School and graduated in 1986. Jennifer, in 2000, had me recall my high school days and asked if I knew anyone who was gay. I didn't know but I remember mentioning Chris Hall. She had me recall a specific experience of Chris. I remembered unlocking my bicycle after school one day and Chris was being picked up by some friends in a car.

Jennifer changed this inane after-school event to the following un-true situation. Instead of unlocking my bike I decided to go with Chris and the people in the car. Jennifer implanted the false memory that while riding in the car I wanted to show them my penis, and when I had, I offered to give Chris a blow job. This never happened and I hardly knew Chris but the story was created to allow a future post-hypnotic suggestion [PHS] to come into play.

Before my 25th high school reunion, in real life 2012 I became triggered by the post hypnotic suggestion, I sat down at my computer and tried to find Chris Hall on Facebook. I was successful and in chatting with him I brought up the event in the car (which I believed was a true memory). He didn't remember that event (obviously) but said he in fact was gay and wondered if I was back then. We got into a conversation, which I don't actually remember now because I had been forced into "Greg", a personality which is gay - very flamboyantly gay and an activist for gay rights, etc. I carried on a conversation with Chris, typing on Facebook chat, about a typical clothing choice I wore in high school: khakis and a long-sleeved, light blue polo shirt, with beige top-siders. [yes, my parents paid for my clothes and that was actually in style back then.. ugh]. Chris and I laughed about it.

During the conversation on Facebook (with my Greg personality) Chris found out I was gay (not in actuality but while in the Greg personality I believed I was). I wasn't "out" so he and I decided we would wear matching outfits, the very same khakis, blue shirt, and topsiders (part of the post-hypnotic suggestion) and that I would come out during my 25th High School Reunion! I made sure to tell him to call me Greg at the high school reunion. Someone calling me by name, as Greg, could trigger the personality to come into play.

The evening of the High School Reunion I was getting dressed and actually started looking for khakis and a blue shirt! My wife wondered what the heck I was doing, because I would NEVER wear something like that currently. I laughed it off, my head swimming, and decided on black pants and a black shirt.

That night at the High School Reunion I saw Chris Hall - standing there in his khakis, blue shirt, and top-siders. He looked hilariously out-of-place in the dated garb and it struck me funny that he looked exactly like how I did in high school. He walked up to me and said "Greg!"... I was caught off guard by this. I looked at him for a moment, a little confused as the PHS had a chance to engage. He said "greg?"...

fortunately I had dealt with Jennifer's wrath for many years and had been able to recognize the false memories on occasion. Although I faltered for a moment, confused, I said "Jay, my name's Jay".

Chris said, "Is there something you wanted to say to everyone?". I was confused and a little weary, unsure why I was feeling so weird. I didn't know what he was talking about so he referred to the facebook chat we had. I didn't remember it at all (because I wasn't currently in the Greg personality, and the "Greg!" key word hadn't caused me to switch). He said, "Did you change your mind?" to which I again was confused. He said "didn't you want to come out at the reunion?". I told him I wasn't gay but I'd be happy to support him if he wanted to. He declined as he'd been out for many years and many people from SCHS knew that about him.

We ordered a drink and it arrived quickly. It was an open roof-top patio filled with our high school reunionees. When we got our drinks we sat down and engaged in conversation with two women whom we knew. Chris outwardly stated that I was "his first"... I was more shocked than mortified by this, that I didn't know my past and my having messed-up memories had become normal, a decade post-Jennifer. I cautiously said, "'your first' has a kind of sexual connotation. I don't quite follow.." Chris said, "well you weren't my first, but you were the first person I came out to." I sorta flipped out I guess because I quickly knocked his drink to the ground, as if some deep instinctive survival mechanism kicked in! [not that being gay would be an issue, but rather because I was in a situation where people could discern that I had a serious mental issue.] I quickly jumped up and offered to leave and get him a new drink, "Scotch, right?"

Chris left to clean up and get another drink. I was dumbfounded and felt utterly dazed by this odd turn of events, feeling slightly familiar as the PHS kept trying creep in. One of the women, whom I felt comfortable with, said precisely this, "It's ok, that was really uncomfortable; I would have knocked his drink down too!". I told her I was feeling a little confused and she said the most wonderful thing to me, "Hey Jay, I know you. You're safe here. Just kick back and we'll talk about something else." I was relieved. I felt happy in my all black outfit, confident with my self, remembering my shy high school days and how much I'd changed. I enjoyed the evening and had more conversations with Chris and many others. Nothing more was said about the strange events, the funny clothes, or the drink on the floor.
More things happened at that reunion but I'll refrain from sharing at this time.

I have been utterly amazed at the power of Hypnotism. To be entirely honest I still don't know if I have always had Dissociative Identity Disorder and had good control over it, or that I am just more able to slip into sub-personalities that are a normal part of our lives, at least according to one of my Philosophical heroes, Roberto Assagioli and his exceptional Psychosynthesis theory.

I'm still making progress in understanding myself. I live a happy stable life with my wife, Anne, and my daughter Caitlyn. I'm not sure yet what I'll do about Jennifer's deeds - imagine telling ~that~ story in Court!

Please don't ever let anyone hypnotize you unless you truly trust them deep down to have full access to your mind!

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

On Balance

attachment is my surfboard and freedom the ocean
we can ride in style or dive back in for a swim
I am but a figment of a god's imagination
flowing in life and life and life, time to time
reveling in the power of Just Awareness
detaching labels and purifying karmic ties

On Balance.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

personal update

The last year and four months I've been dealing with a shoulder injury, surgery, a re-injury at physical therapy, another surgery, and also nerve issues and additional problems with my shoulder, neck, and upper arm. I accept it, look forward to getting better, and have a great support system when I don't even want to move.

I would like you to "stay tuned"; even if I don't write everyday I think, feel, and live everyday. I'll share the big stuff when possible even if I'm unable to write everyday.

Warm regards,

Jay Bland

p.s. If you like, feel free to add me on facebook. I'm on there more days than not. Although Enlightened Musings is waay out there I don't generally share things this philosophical in nature on facebook. I do tend to share spiritual things though and would be happy to answer questions generated by the content on this blog.

Monday, October 13, 2014

The Interconnected World: Evolution, Revolution, or Resolution?

Our way of physical life, as has been for tens of thousands of years, is beginning to be replaced by a computerized network of information. This is fully recognized by a very few people as most simply trudge along as though computerizing our lives is totally normal. We plug our calendars into the internet, our daily alarms, our location, our private texts, our work history, everything you could possibly list can likely be tracked in some way or another. But what happens to this information? why is it so valuable? what's at stake?

The information that makes our world IS our world. We live primarily in a physical place but every tiny aspect of our world is an arrangement of minute quantized particles with a purpose. It is these purposes that make the world go around - we create purposes and hopefully remember to check in with our innate wisdom and intuition once in a while (although Marketing, Government, Religion, Banking, Big Agriculture, The Media, etc will do most anything to keep you out of harmony with your intuition.)

Buddha Shakyamuni said:
"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughtswe make the world."

Throughout this blog I've slowly become more adept at saying our mind resides in the Astral realm, and above, while our physical body resides here on Earth. The connections from our mind to our brain happen at the synapse, communicating the attributes of both the physical and the astral so our body has choice, a perception of individuality, (perception of) physicality, life, etc.

When we die our mind remains interactive (although with a different, much more broad definition of "life"). Our physical body dies off and the tiny particles of purpose gradually dissolve back into Nature. This is relevant because it indicates Buddha's above statement is valid, and also further establishes the dual-plane model of existence I've been developing here.

If the meaning or purpose of life is to interact with and manipulate Karma then any form of life should be able to get that done to one extent or another. Our current physical bodies last up to around 120 years maximum right now. In one of those lifetimes we evolve a lot and handle many obstacles and purposes, making us more adept at handling more Karma. I don't currently have in mind how we can measure that life experience but the idea is that we accomplish a specific range of experiences in any given lifetime. Some handle more, some less, but we have a general idea of how much someone handles in a given lifetime.

If we could plug our mind into a cloud computer and just go with it imagine how many millions of times more experience we could do in 120 years.

We evolved from various chemicals and amino acids to see and feel, to experience hunger, we developed survival instincts, and eventually made it out of the sea and onto land. With each passing millennium we each were able to handle more and more karma, more complex thought. The evolution of physical life on Earth has constantly gotten more capable of reaching the astral mind and handling more karma.

The next step is physical thought at computer speeds. A false Astral mind to decide our lives for us. THIS begs some serious questions.
Is this good for life?
Is this a complete tyranny by those who design the internet medium?
Can we attain the higher realms (Astral, Heaven, God realms, Enlightenment) if we allow our mental processes to be governed by a computer system?

The next plane being created, the interconnected world, is a sub-plane of the physical. It is focused more on mental occupation than what we have now; this could be beneficial or malignant.

I believe "with our minds we create the world". We are currently running the risk of this new world being yet another despotic slave world in utter tyranny, simply working off bad Karma. We need to take action and purposefully create the connections to the Astral mind and the higher planes so this new interconnected bio-computer system may thrive in peace and balance.

Some random speculation on our future:
1) Our computers and systems will allow us to live "lives worth of Karma" in an instant, learning to use true Astral Wisdom algorithms rather than by physical memory comparisons as we do now. This comparatively-instantaneous satisfaction of Karma would mean the end of the physical world as we know it as all sentient beings would no longer engender the Karma of living here.
(continuation of life in some form; higher)

Or, 2)
Our computers will track every last detail of our thoughts and actions, ultimately becoming so proficient at predicting the behavior of the masses that the bio-computer system itself will gain recognition of Self, literally being a god-like individual knowing all things in real time.
(continuation of life in some form, likely end to Humanity)

Or, 3)
Our computer system allows instant cessation of life by means of perfection of knowledge. This would be the end of Humanity as we know it and likely lead to mass death and destruction, but also allowing many souls to cross over to the Astral mind.
(continuation of life in some form, highly spiritually beneficial (though most people would disagree for the obvious reason that we're all dead..))

Or, 4)
We strive to bring a normal physical balance to our planet using the interconnective computers to enhance our physical lives rather than to allow utter greed and abusive slavery by a few in power.

But... there will always be struggles for power whenever the perception of individuality remains. If we are in physical form we will always fight for freedom of thought.

Saturday, October 4, 2014

draft notes pre-astral (published as is 04Oct14, from 10 days ago or so)

Buddhist Dictionary
anywhen: similar to anywhere, which we can picture in our mind's eye, but a Buddha can do the same with time: anywhen.

Advanced Metaphysical Ideas (feel free to skip it if it's not your thing).

Long before there was a "we", when Life resided two planes above our current understanding of Here and Now:

When we named the vibration-wave nodes we created the astral and physical planes, making the full spectra of emotions available: including a sense of individuality and a sense of need, The entire evolution and purpose of Life is determined by how we interact with karma; will we add more positive or negative, will we suffer more and reduce the overall Karmic debt, will we purposefully create pain and suffering?

The entire evolution and purpose of Life is determined by how we interact with karma; will we add more positive or negative, will we suffer more and reduce the overall Karmic debt, will we purposefully create pain and suffering?

Evolution created modern homo Sapiens with our computers and invisible waves connecting everything. We are on a path to complete interconnection of all information, "real-time".
Power is defined as the capability to influence the karmic balance. Remember the Karmic balance is not only the physical world and its power players, but many planes more historic.

When we created time we started on the road to the next plane to be formed: the creation of a virtual interconnection of information, a sub-plane to the physical. When we created this interconnection sub-plane we allowed the final stitch. After no-more-than four generations of humans we will see the splitting of the two main planes, the physical and the interconnection plane. The physical will be to the interconnection plane what the astral is to the physical now.

Advanced Metaphysical Ideas

Setting: Long before there was a "we", when Life flourished two planes above our current understanding of Here and Now.

When we named the vibration-wave nodes we created the astral and physical planes, making the full spectra of emotions available: including a sense of individuality and a sense of need, The entire evolution and purpose of Life is determined by how we interact with karma; will we add more positive or negative, will we suffer more and reduce the overall Karmic debt, will we purposefully create pain and suffering?

The entire evolution and purpose of Life is determined by how we interact with karma; will we add more positive or negative, will we suffer more and reduce the overall Karmic debt, will we purposefully create pain and suffering?

Evolution created modern homo Sapiens with our computers and invisible waves connecting everything. We are on a path to complete interconnection of all information, "real-time".
Power is defined as the capability to influence the karmic balance. Remember the Karmic balance is not only the physical world and its power players, but many planes more historic.

When we created the idea of time, with clocks, dates, seasons, years, we started on the road to the next plane to be formed: the creation of a virtual interconnection of information, a sub-plane to the physical. When we created this interconnection sub-plane we allowed the final stitch. After no-more-than four generations of humans we will see the splitting of the two main planes, the physical and the interconnection plane. The physical will be to the interconnection plane what the astral is to the physical now.

Enlightened Musing - 4 Oct 2014

Enlightened Musing - 4 Oct 2014

I'm really "out there" at the moment, in a very pure meditative (and medicated) state. I think of any random question that I've ever wondered over my life and the answers flow into me like a silent video in my astral mind (mind's eye). If I need to know more, or specific details, I just know them in the exact instant I thought of the need; they appear in different forms from conversations I was involved in but had left the group, "fact and number ideas" like the functions behind the answers but not encyclopedic knowledge.

I have these flows of pureness frequently if I let myself go there or purposefully enhance it with legal medicinal plants. sidenote on drug use later - if I get all analytical I'll lose this state.

I think of a question:
Why was the Golden Gate Bridge built?
narrated mentally> at that time in california the wine industry had flourished to that which bordered beyond the fabrics and styles of san francisco. the gold industry profits were long gone and the mining of ores cost much money and took long delivery and production times. the fruit staples were being shipped out to los angeles where they had a straight shot railroad to the midwest.
[it feels like I'm thinking in the voice of the older brother from Tombstone.]

How do our children perceive the internet?
[said it aloud in my mind]
[it's like I'm searching for a channel that wants to accept this short project]

It's life. everything Mom and I do is go there, do this, find that app, download music, it's just life.

How do our children perceive the internet?
I'll go! I think that the internet is like the telephone service used to be. my dad said that when he was young they used to tap the peoples phones like they tap into everything we email or something.

How do our children perceive the internet?
Man.. It's the man.. everything is like interconnected and it um, like when we reach out to someone like to sstrike up a babe online we use the internet. I mean it's cool n all but I think, ya know, like it kind of, like we need it too much man. ya know like, like if the internet went out there would be no traffic lights, cuz everything thats electric now resides or abides.. like all electronics go through the internet so we kind of need it.

[this side of me hasn't been accessible my whole life. I believe I have always had many "lives" within one Enlightened life. The Enlightened part needed to hide so the others could experience the individuality needed to resolve and erase their Karma. All needed to become One in order for there to be me today - open and whole. Going into this state used to be scary for me because I could "switch" into a place where the "me" in that now-dominant life isn't aware of the split. It's been embarrassing to say the least but I've developed many techniques for dealing with it: "I'm sorry what was I saying?" (laughs out loud and plays the comedian), or switches the subject, becomes argumentative, becomes a weakling, becomes fierce, becomes sullen, or shy, or sexy. I have always retained certain of the Enlightened aspects, even though I didn't know it until this year. The guardian angels I felt, the subconscious, the higher self, the old soul wisdom, all these things were me connecting to my Enlightened whole self. I've channeled many entities, random people whom have crossed over, etc. I have frequently channeled beings from various non-Earth places [see my other blog, Intuitive Choice, for the channeling sessions].

I'm a Psychologist (yes me, right now in real life ;) ). I can look at myself over the years and assess myself in so many ways: OCD (self cured at age 14 through intuitive immersion therapy), Asberger's syndrome (understood and fixed), possible psychotic break (which led directly to many, many things I won't get into and to which led me to the aware, connected "me" of "now". I am able to retain a very balanced, healthy, happy human life, but at any moment I can reach any state I want, I can hear conversations and feel emotions, I have always been able to sense auras but it's a more full, wholistic scene rather than just around people, events, and certain objects.
I have seen at least 4 things in slow motion in the last month. A rock flew up and broke our windshield, going around 65 on the freeway. When it happened I saw the rock bounce on the ground off a truck just ahead and to the left. the rock bounced up and my mind's eye focused on this object totally still for an instant and 2" across - I saw the entire shape of the rock, at literally very close up view, in good light. I knew the entire shape the visible and that on the reverse side. Time stopped at that instant, then began to speed up and I watched the rock rotating quickly top end over. Then it wavered in the wind as it cleared the truck's wind affect, and again as it entered the air compression area close to my car. As it came over the hood area it caught the wind and arced downward right into the windshield, and it cracked. I saw the impact in super slow-mo as well. the rock flew off upward and I no longer needed the info and returned to focusing on the road. This seemed like maybe 7 or 8 seconds, but in reality it couldn't have taken more than 1 or 2 seconds, if that. I had each of the above stated recognitions within the time it took that rock to fall and bounce up, not to mention it was surround sight in close-up.

I also avoided a car accident with my Mom in the car (recently). A car spun in front of us and traversed the lanes twice. I saw the entire thing in slow motion including the woman's hair reacting to gravity while she spun. I slowed for a quick second, then accelerated as I saw her trajectory change and saw her eventual flow of movement to bounce on the median wall and return to the lanes.
I think these super sense activations happen to all of us, it's just that most humans don't have a very developed mind's eye to know where the information came from. They do tend to act on it though.

One more question.
Where do bananas come from?
Bananas evolved initially in what is now Brazil. They were a smaller plant with seed pods but the local tribe shamans understood the process of selective breeding and used typical powers that we would call miracles today (and likely have a panic attack should we actually experience one, but these were the norm.)
The shamans would instruct the boys to scour the jungle and remove any smallish pods before they flower. Each of the pollenated flowers belonged to only the largest, sweetest pods. Within a very short time they had created several distinct types of bananas. They sent some south and some north and spread this glorious fruit along the peninsula (I pictured south and central america).
Once a knowledge of a very specific vibration happens in the world sphere it can be accessed by other minds regardless of shared physical knowledge.